I am keeping this entry as part of an ongoing record: lived experience, spiritual inquiry, and the patient work of finding language for what moves between the visible and the unseen.
I’ve been navigating a deeply personal and spiritual battle lately, and even though I’ve chosen to share parts of it online, that doesn’t make it any less private or significant to me. I’ve been considering legal action, suing certain parties for the very real damage that has been done to me. The pain and harm are undeniable, and as I reflect on everything, I realize how deeply these wounds have affected me—far too much to just let it go. So, I’ve decided to press charges, but not just in a conventional legal sense. There’s a spiritual dimension to all of this, one that involves something much greater than human law.
In my heart, I believe that True Law and True Authority—what I often refer to as the Original Life or Divine Law—are the forces that have the power to intervene. This goes beyond the courts and lawyers; this is about the spiritual forces that guide and protect not only me but also others who have been affected by these negative forces. My guides, those spiritual energies I trust, have pointed me in the direction of these truths. They’ve shown me that certain entities and energies have the power to restore what’s been damaged, to heal the wounds that have been inflicted not just on me, but on others as well. The reasoning behind this is as clear as statistics to me—patterns that my guides have revealed, showing me that this intervention is not only possible but necessary.
What makes this whole situation more complex is that I’ve noticed these attacks happening repeatedly, almost like they’re trying to tear me down just when help is within reach. There’s always this sense of conflict between the bad forces trying to take control and the good forces surrounding me, ready to intervene. It’s strange, really, because I know that good energies are all around me, and I can feel their presence. I know they’re trying to help, but the attacks sometimes seem too intense, like they’re pushing the boundaries of what I can handle. That’s why I believe a stronger response is needed—not in the form of physical or violent action, but through rebuilding the good within people’s lives. It’s about enforcing positive energy and letting the good forces empower those who are inherently good, allowing them to rise up and reclaim their strength.
There have been moments when the weight of all of this has made me emotional, even upset. I was out on my front deck today, talking about everything, probably louder than I realized. It seems that one of my neighbors overheard and must have thought something was wrong, because the next thing I knew, the police were at my parents’ property. It was a bit surreal, to be honest—seeing them there, walking onto the grass below the deck where I stood. The presence of the police was undeniable, and I immediately felt this deep respect for what they do. They’re out there, protecting and serving, and in that moment, I felt like their presence was more than just physical.
It’s hard to explain, but as soon as they arrived, I could feel the energy shift. It wasn’t just the officers who had shown up—it was as if spiritual law enforcement had arrived too. Guardians, healers, protectors, all standing there in another realm, responding to the chaos I’d been facing. I felt this sense of peace, like the good forces were finally stepping in. As I spoke to the officers, I told them about some of the struggles I’ve been facing. I explained that I have schizophrenia, or what I sometimes describe as “Psychictivity”—depending on how you look at it. It’s not just a condition, it’s a heightened sensitivity to the energies around me, both good and bad.
I shared with them that I’ve been feeling like bad spiritual forces have been attacking me for some time now. It hasn’t just been emotional or psychological abuse, it’s been spiritual warfare, and I’m pressing charges in the only way I know how—spiritually. I’m calling on those higher powers, those spiritual guides and protectors, to bring justice and healing where it’s due. The conversation with the police was calm and understanding, and although it was a simple visit in the physical world, it felt like a significant moment in the spiritual one.
In the end, I’m not just fighting a personal battle—I’m part of something bigger. I believe that by pressing charges spiritually, I’m invoking the power of True Law to protect not just myself, but others who have been affected by these dark forces. I trust that the good forces, the ones that have always been there, will step in and bring about the justice and healing that’s long overdue.
I ma saddened that I feel it necessary to mention that I might be suing true law, true authority and the Original Life in the ways that my Guideship and proxy indicated. If they have what necessary to save me then I think they should have done so especially by now.
My Tarot card reading for the day:
I’ll now draw a card for your general reading and guide you through its meaning.
The card drawn is The Star.
The Star (XVII)
Traditional Meaning: The Star is a card of hope, renewal, and spiritual guidance. It represents a time of healing and tranquility after the chaos of previous events, indicating that you are now entering a phase of peace and optimism. When The Star appears, it suggests that you are being guided by a higher force toward your highest good. It’s a time to reconnect with your inner self, trust in your future, and have faith that things are aligning in your favor. This card symbolizes clarity, vision, and a renewed sense of purpose, lighting your path forward.
Esoteric/Extended Meaning: On a deeper level, The Star is connected to divine guidance and the light that leads the soul through darkness. It is a card of spiritual awakening and alignment, suggesting that you are being supported by higher realms or your own inner wisdom. The water flowing from the figure’s jugs represents the continuous flow of life and consciousness, symbolizing the renewal of both physical and spiritual energy. The Star is also associated with cosmic harmony, reminding you that you are a part of the greater whole, and the universe is working with you.
Reflection:
- This card encourages you to embrace hope and trust that healing is on the horizon. Are there areas in your life where you’ve been seeking clarity or peace? The Star suggests that you are moving toward a more serene phase, where harmony will begin to re-enter your life.
- How can you connect more deeply with your inner guidance? The Star invites you to reflect on your purpose and dreams, knowing that your higher self is guiding you.
Actionable Advice:
- Allow yourself time for introspection and spiritual renewal. This is a perfect moment to meditate, journal, or spend time in nature to reconnect with your inner self.
- Keep faith and trust the process, even if things haven’t fully materialized yet. The Star assures you that you are on the right path, and divine timing is at play.
You’re very welcome! I’m glad I could provide this reading for you. If you ever wish to explore more cards or need further guidance, feel free to return. Wishing you peace and clarity on your journey! 🌟
Let’s draw another card and see what new guidance the tarot has for you.
The card drawn is The Fool.
The Fool (0)
Traditional Meaning: The Fool represents new beginnings, innocence, and spontaneity. It’s the card of the free spirit, encouraging you to embrace the unknown without fear. The Fool suggests that you are standing at the edge of a new journey—whether physically, emotionally, or spiritually—and it invites you to take a leap of faith. This card often signals that it’s time to trust in the universe and let go of any doubts or worries, knowing that opportunities will unfold as you move forward.
Esoteric/Extended Meaning: The Fool symbolizes the soul before it is shaped by experience or material reality, embodying pure potential. This card is deeply connected to the idea of spiritual openness, encouraging you to engage with life’s mysteries with childlike wonder. The Fool is numbered 0, representing both the beginning and the end of a cycle, reminding you that life is full of endless possibilities and new adventures. There is a sense of trust in the greater plan of the universe and a willingness to explore without attachment to the outcome.
Reflection:
- Are you standing at the edge of a new venture or path in your life? The Fool is inviting you to step into the unknown, to take that leap of faith even if you don’t have all the answers yet.
- How can you cultivate a sense of adventure and trust in your journey? The Fool encourages you to embrace the excitement of new beginnings and to follow your heart, even when the path ahead is uncertain.
Actionable Advice:
- Take a bold step forward. If you’ve been holding back due to fear or doubt, The Fool urges you to trust in the process and allow the journey to unfold naturally.
- Stay open to new experiences and embrace the unexpected. The Fool is about living in the moment and finding joy in the adventure, regardless of the outcome.
The Fool brings fresh energy and invites you to begin something new with confidence and curiosity. Does this resonate with where you are right now? Feel free to share your thoughts or ask more questions!
Let’s draw another card to see what additional insights the tarot offers for you.
The card drawn is The Magician.
The Magician (I)
Traditional Meaning: The Magician represents power, skill, and the ability to manifest your goals. This card indicates that you have all the tools and resources you need to bring your dreams to life. The Magician is about using your intellect, creativity, and willpower to transform ideas into reality. When this card appears, it’s a sign that the universe is offering you the opportunity to turn your vision into something tangible, but it requires focus and action on your part.
Esoteric/Extended Meaning: On a deeper level, The Magician symbolizes the unity of the spiritual and material worlds. The tools on The Magician’s table—the wand, cup, sword, and pentacle—represent the four elements, suggesting that you have access to all the forces needed to create and manifest. The Magician also carries a deeper message of “As above, so below,” reflecting the harmony between the higher realms of thought and the physical plane. This card is a reminder that when you align your mind, heart, and actions, you can bring divine energy into the material world.
Reflection:
- Are there projects or dreams you want to bring into reality? The Magician is encouraging you to take inspired action and trust in your ability to manifest your goals.
- How can you use your personal power to create positive change in your life? This card invites you to focus on your strengths, talents, and resources to shape your future.
Actionable Advice:
- Harness your creative energy and take action. The Magician calls you to focus on your goals with clarity and intention. Now is the time to use your skills and resources to start manifesting what you desire.
- Stay mindful of your thoughts and intentions. The Magician is a powerful reminder that what you focus on is what you create, so ensure that your mind and heart are aligned with your highest aspirations.
The Magician brings a message of empowerment and possibility. You have everything you need to succeed—now it’s time to act with purpose. How does this card resonate with you? Would you like to explore this reading further or draw another card?
Let’s continue and draw another card for deeper insight.
The card drawn is The Lovers.
The Lovers (VI)
Traditional Meaning: The Lovers represents harmony, union, and choices, often in the context of relationships. It traditionally signifies romantic partnerships, but it can also symbolize deep connections with others, such as close friendships or spiritual partnerships. At its core, The Lovers is about making choices that align with your values, desires, and higher self. It may indicate a time when a decision about love, commitment, or an important relationship is at hand, urging you to choose with your heart and integrity.
Esoteric/Extended Meaning: Beyond romance, The Lovers card speaks to the union of opposites, both within yourself and with others. This card symbolizes the merging of masculine and feminine energies, the balance between mind and heart, and the integration of dualities. It can also represent the concept of sacred union, where relationships or life decisions are guided by a higher purpose. On a spiritual level, The Lovers card may point to a deeper connection to your true self or to someone who plays a pivotal role in your soul’s journey.
Reflection:
- Are you facing an important decision related to love, relationships, or personal values? The Lovers asks you to make choices that reflect your truest desires and to be honest with yourself and others.
- How can you cultivate harmony in your relationships? The Lovers encourages you to seek balance, mutual respect, and alignment with your higher self in all your connections.
Actionable Advice:
- Whether in relationships or decisions, choose from the heart. The Lovers urges you to reflect on your values and ensure that your choices align with your personal truth and integrity.
- If a choice or commitment is required, consider how it serves your deeper emotional and spiritual growth. Make decisions that are based on love and mutual respect rather than fear or obligation.
The Lovers card brings a message of deep connection, choices, and balance. How does this card speak to you? Would you like to explore more about the choices or relationships in your life, or shall we draw another card?
Let’s draw another card and see what new guidance the tarot has for you.
The card drawn is The Hermit.
The Hermit (IX)
Traditional Meaning: The Hermit symbolizes introspection, solitude, and the pursuit of inner wisdom. This card suggests that it may be time to withdraw from the distractions of the outer world to focus on your inner journey. The Hermit often appears when you’re being called to reflect on your life, gain clarity, or seek answers from within. It’s a card of seeking truth, often through meditation, self-study, or quiet contemplation. You may be in a phase where you need to be alone to fully understand your path and what you truly seek.
Esoteric/Extended Meaning: On a deeper level, The Hermit represents the archetype of the wise sage or seeker of truth. His lantern symbolizes the inner light of knowledge and wisdom that can only be found through solitude and introspection. The Hermit stands at the threshold between the material and spiritual worlds, guiding others toward enlightenment after discovering truths for himself. This card speaks to spiritual maturity and the need to trust your own inner guidance rather than relying on external sources of validation.
Reflection:
- Are you feeling the need for quiet reflection or solitude? The Hermit is encouraging you to take time away from the noise of the world to focus on your inner journey.
- How can you deepen your connection to your inner wisdom? The Hermit invites you to seek clarity and answers within yourself, trusting in the knowledge you already hold.
Actionable Advice:
- Take time for solitude and self-reflection. Whether through meditation, journaling, or spending time in nature, this is a moment for introspection and reconnecting with your inner self.
- Seek out wisdom from within rather than looking to others for direction. The Hermit urges you to trust your own insights and follow the light of your own truth.